One step closer to alone.. Feelings drudged up to ease ones mind while anothers becomes weeker and is damaged more as a by product. To think that two people can see and feel so differently after seeing things so similarly. Strange to be on the giving end of love and to have it be rejected.. Thats not how it suppossed to be right? Your suppossed to give love, unconditional love, freely, and in turn we are to take people love and reciprocate.. Right? But then the whole attraction game sets in, and the love becomes skewed... Set aside as ''your'' love or ''weird'' to love.. So thats where I find myself... Only able to show love or anything really to one person... One human out 6 fucking billion... And unable to get past the most basic polite bull shit and intrdoductory interaction that I cant love or even feel anything towards anyone else. I would call that broken. Sounds like insanity.. Or more over obsession......? Is that where o find myself... Obsesses? I dont think so... Or at least don't want to justify it that way but the writing is on the wall... So I guess time can heal this wound... Time, isolation, thinking and reflection, physical exertion.. I will heal.. I must heal.. I can not live in this trap for much longer.